Fast forward - mid December and the weather is delightful

It's hard to believe that this is December, as the weather feels like April. Hanging clothes out on the line on December 12th 2015 makes me very happy! Add to that, I only have 8 radiation treatments until I am done. For the first 5 treatments, I was fortunate enough to get a ride to the cancer centre with two lovely ladies from work. Now that I am off work, I am very proud to say that I have made it to every one of my treatments under my own steam. There have been offers of a lift into town, but it really makes no sense when it takes someone 45 minutes to drive me to the cancer centre and then wait 30 minutes for my treatment then drive me home. This is my battle therefore it is my duty to get myself to treatment without putting anyone out.

As mentioned on Facebook, we came upon a man laying on the grass in the park yesterday, called an ambulance and waited till they got there to help him. That was 24 hours ago and I can't get the man out of my head. Who was he? What does he do for a living? Does he have a partner and/or children? Are his family with him now? What would have happened to him if we just kept walking? I was scared for him at the time and even more so now. Why is that?

I ran into an old friend yesterday who I havnt seen since the summer. She knew of my diagnosis but was uncomfortable when she saw me as she tried to turn the other way.  I get it. But I really apologize to any of you who feel awkward around me; it wasn't my intention. I tell people so that they know the truth and not have to rely on rumours.

Today marks 13 years since my Mom left us. I can't believe how it has gone so quickly! Time does tend to heal somehow, but many times during this current journey, I wish she was here. I'd love to be able to sit down with a hot cup of tea and talk about my anxiety concerning my future. A positive attitude is what gets me through the days, but once the sun goes down, my mind seems to go into overdrive when it comes to "what's next?"